How God Met Me in the Middle of My Brokeness

It all began in 2022, after a painful breakup with someone I deeply loved. I found myself sitting in the bathtub, knees pulled to my chest, arms wrapped tightly around my legs—rocking back and forth like a little girl who had just lost her way. Tears streamed down my face as I cried out to the Lord, overwhelmed by heartbreak, confusion, and anger.

I felt vulnerable. Lost. And honestly—I was angry with God.

That’s when I began questioning everything about my life. (Here is a little backstory) For most of my life, I had only known one man. We met when I was just 12 years old, got married by time I was 21, and had a beautiful son together. But by the time my son was three, (2019) I found myself facing betrayal and divorce. Thirteen years… gone. I fought hard to save that marriage, but in the end, it was taken from me.

During that time of divorce, I cried out to God, He gave me one phrase: “Dust your feet off.”

There was no forcing someone to stay.

Not long after my divorce, I found myself falling in love again. But the truth is—my heart wasn’t ready. I was guarded, wounded, and unknowingly damaging something (and someone) precious. I had compromised. I had fallen into the world’s standards. I was out of alignment with God.

And so there I was - in the bathtub. Broken.

“Why, God?” I asked through tears. “Why the divorce? Why the pain? And now- why did I hurt someone I truly love? Am I even called to be a wife?”

That’s when God gently whispered to my heart: “Proverbs 31:10.”

I didn’t even know if that verse existed. At the time, I was still new in my walk with Christ. I brushed it off, frustrated and emotionally drained. I didn’t want another Bible verse. I just wanted the man I had hurt. I longed for his laugh, his love, his presence—for everything to just go back to normal.

But something stirred in me. After my bath, I hesitantly opened my Bible—“just to see.”

And there it was: the heading of the passage read “The Virtuous Wife.”

I broke.

That was my confirmation. A whisper from Heaven. A divine reminder:

I was called to be a wife.