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Sour Grapes: When Words Sound Sweet But the Fruit Is Sour

There are people who know exactly what to say.

They can sound wise, caring, emotionally aware, even spiritually mature. For a while, it can appear fruitful on the surface. Their words sound sweet. Their presence feels familiar. Their check-ins feel meaningful.

But eventually, time reveals what words alone cannot hide.

Fruit always tells the truth.

Jesus said in Holy Bible that we would know people by their fruit — not by potential, chemistry, familiarity, charm, or even occasional moments of sincerity, but by what their lives consistently produce.

And scripture is clear about what good fruit actually looks like.

In Holy Bible, the fruit of the Spirit is described as:

Love.
Joy.
Peace.
Patience.
Kindness.
Goodness.
Faithfulness.
Gentleness.
Self-control.

Good fruit is not simply knowing the right words.

Good fruit is reflected in character.
In consistency.
In integrity.
In how someone treats others over time.
In whether their actions align with the truth they speak.

Good fruit matures.
It nourishes.
It grows.
It carries honesty and accountability.
It brings peace instead of confusion.
Clarity instead of inconsistency.
Security instead of emotional instability.

But bad or unripe fruit can look promising for a season. From a distance, it may even appear healthy. Yet over time, when you finally taste it, you realize something is missing.

It lacks depth.
It lacks consistency.
It lacks intentionality.
It lacks maturity.

Sometimes people know how to speak with wisdom but still lack the fruit of self-control, faithfulness, honesty, or emotional maturity in the way they handle connection.

And eventually, the absence of real fruit reveals itself.

In Holy Bible, Jesus tells the parable of the fig tree that had been given years to produce fruit. More time was granted. More patience was extended. More opportunity for growth was given.

But eventually the question became:

“Why should it continue taking up space while producing nothing?”

That verse has challenged me deeply because sometimes we hold onto people, connections, and situations based on what could be instead of what actually is.

Sometimes we confuse words for fruit.
Attention for intention.
Familiarity for genuine connection.
Potential for maturity.

And this doesn’t only apply to romantic relationships.

Fruit shows up in friendships too.
In communication.
In effort.
In honesty.
In consistency.
In the way we steward people’s hearts.

Sometimes someone may “check in,” but over time you realize the connection was never truly being tended to at all. Because genuine connection — in any form — requires intentionality. It requires honesty, presence, and care.

A real connection leaves evidence of life.

Growth.
Understanding.
Mutual effort.
Trust.
Freshness.

Not emotional crumbs stretched across years.

Not hidden conversations that cannot fully exist in the light.

Not occasional access disguised as consistency.

Because fruit that is healthy does not fear the light.

And sometimes the hardest truth to accept is that occasional moments of care are not the same thing as genuine fruitfulness. A tree is not considered fruitful because it produces one healthy-looking leaf every once in a while. Fruit is sustained. It matures over time.

Some people know how to sound sincere without ever building something substantial.

That does not make them evil.
It simply reveals immaturity, inconsistency, or an area where growth has not yet taken place.

Discernment is not condemnation.

Discernment is simply recognizing the difference between what is alive and what only appears alive from a distance.

There comes a point where wisdom asks:
How much longer do we continue watering what refuses to grow?

Not from bitterness.
Not from pride.
Not from resentment.

But because God never called us to stay attached to stagnancy.

I’m also learning that Christlike love does not force transformation.

God gives us free will.

He waters.
He prunes.
He extends grace.
He gives opportunity after opportunity for growth.

But He does not force fruit where someone refuses to mature.

Sometimes loving people like Christ means continuing to pray for them, forgive them, and wish them well — while also releasing the responsibility of trying to force growth that only God and their own surrender can produce.

Not every goodbye has to be rooted in hatred.

Some goodbyes are rooted in wisdom.
In peace.
In acceptance.

In understanding that love can still exist even when connection no longer should.

I think one of the hardest parts of growth is accepting when something has been given love, grace, patience, prayer, and time… and still does not become fruitful.

Not every connection is meant to continue forever.

Some relationships teach us discernment.
Some teach us boundaries.
Some teach us how deeply we are capable of loving.
And some teach us that it is possible to care for people while also releasing what no longer bears healthy fruit.

Jesus loved people deeply, yet He still allowed free will.

He did not force hearts to change.
He did not force fruitfulness.

And I think part of spiritual maturity is learning the difference between loving someone and carrying the weight of becoming responsible for their growth.

Some trees need to be surrendered back into God’s hands.

Because only He can produce true fruit in someone willing to grow.

And maybe one of the hardest lessons in discernment is knowing when something has been given enough love, grace, patience, and time to bear fruit… and choosing to leave it in God’s hands when it never does.

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Running the Wrong Race

There was a time when I thought the race was about becoming more successful, more admired, more financially secure, more “put together.” The world teaches us to run after status, money, validation, titles, appearance, and influence as if those things can finally satisfy the emptiness inside of us.

But so many people are exhausted chasing a finish line that keeps moving.

More money.

More followers.

A better relationship.

A bigger platform.

A different body.

A different life.

Yet even after achieving what they prayed for, there’s still a lack of peace. A lack of fulfillment. A lack of joy.

Why?

Because we were never created to find our identity in the world.

We were created to find it in Jesus.

Some people have built entire lives around success while the presence of God is nowhere to be found within it. They have the career, the image, the attention, and the accomplishments, yet their spirit is still starving. The world can decorate the outside of a person while their soul quietly withers within.

The truth is, nothing outside of God will ever fully satisfy what only God was meant to fill.

The world tells us:

“Chase yourself.”

Jesus says: “Deny yourself and follow Me.”

The world says:

“Build your own kingdom.”

Jesus says: “Seek first the Kingdom of God.”

The world says:

“You need more to become valuable.”

Jesus says:

“You were already valuable enough for Me to die for you.”

So many are running hard, but they’re running in the wrong direction.

Success without God becomes empty.

Wealth without God becomes an idol.

Relationships without God become unstable.

Validation without God becomes addiction.

There is no true peace apart from Him.

And I’ve also realized something deeper through reflection… even in dreams, God can reveal what the soul already understands.

I saw two different paths.

One was a trail where someone was running hard toward a goal—sweating, being timed, focused, urgent, not slowing down for anything. Even the relationships around that pace looked like training, structure, pressure, and movement toward something ahead.

But then I saw something different.

I was walking in green pastures.

Not rushing. Not striving. Not being timed. Just walking in peace in a completely different direction.

And the contrast felt clear.

One life is driven by pressure, performance, and pursuit.

The other is led by peace, presence, and trust in God.

The race was never meant to be about proving your worth to people. It was always about walking closely with Jesus. Intimacy with Him matters more than appearances. His presence matters more than popularity. His voice matters more than public approval.

The saddest thing is that many people know about God, but don’t actually know Him. They seek blessings more than they seek the Blesser.

But Jesus is still calling people back.

Back to surrender.

Back to truth.

Back to stillness.

Back to His presence.

Because the life found in Christ is the only life that truly satisfies.

As believers, we have to ask ourselves:

What race am I actually running?

Is it the race to be admired by people?

Or the race to become more like Jesus?

Is it running toward God…

or running away from Him?

Is it chasing temporary things—jobs, relationships, money, material success—or is it pursuing eternal peace in Christ?

Is my life about proving something to others…

or does it make God proud?

The Kingdom race looks different. Sometimes it’s slower. Sometimes it requires sacrifice. Sometimes it won’t impress people. But it produces eternal fruit, lasting peace, and real joy.

The world may applaud self-made success, but Heaven celebrates surrendered hearts.

Scripture

“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” — Matthew 6:33

When Jesus becomes the center, everything else falls into proper place. Not because life becomes perfect, but because your soul is finally anchored in the One thing that never fades.

Run the race that leads back to Him.

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Learning to Let Go: Parenting an almost 10-Year-Old Through Transition as a Single Mom

There are moments in parenting that don’t feel like milestones at first—they feel like resistance.

My son will be 10 years old in May, and recently he started riding his scooter to school. On paper, it sounds like a simple step forward. But for me, it felt like something deeper—a shift I could no longer ignore.

He’s growing up.

And I’m learning how to let him.

There’s a quiet in-between stage we’re in right now—where he’s no longer a little boy who needs help with everything, but not fully independent either. He’s capable now in ways he wasn’t before. Brushing his teeth, showering, waking up and getting ready without me standing over every step… those are things he can do. And some days he does them well. Other days, they still fall through the cracks.

And I feel it.

Not just frustration—but adjustment. Because we are both learning a new rhythm. A new expectation. A new version of “us.”

Even the small things reflect that transition. He now has his own room, but there are still nights he ends up in mine without even thinking about it. Half asleep, like muscle memory still remembers where comfort used to be. And I don’t always send him back. Some nights, I just let him stay.

And then there are the moments where I choose what’s easier. Like cleaning his room myself instead of making him go back and do it again after a long day. Not because I don’t believe in responsibility but because I’m tired. Because life is full. Because repetition sometimes feels heavier than the task itself.

But I’m learning that “easier” in the moment isn’t always the same as “helping him grow.”

As a single mom working full-time in management + owning a business, and balancing ministry work- life moves fast. There are mornings I’m already carrying the weight of the day before the sun is fully up, still making sure he’s fed, ready, and out the door on time. There isn’t always extra time to go back and forth, or the emotional energy to enforce every lesson perfectly.

So sometimes, he has to step into independence a little earlier than I planned.

And that tension sits with me.

Because I want to protect his childhood… but I also know I’m raising him for the world.

And if I’m honest, most days I’m imperfect in it.

There are moments I lose my cool. Moments I feel myself getting frustrated quicker than I want to admit. Moments where my tone doesn’t fully reflect my love. And part of that comes from pressure—the pressure of raising a boy and wanting him to grow into strength, responsibility, and character.

But I’m realizing something I can no longer ignore:

I can guide him. I can teach him. I can correct him.

But I cannot fully shape who he becomes.

That part belongs to God.

There are also transitions happening outside of me that I don’t fully control.

His dad has slowly been stepping back into his life, and now he spends time away every other weekend. And while I know that relationship matters, it hasn’t been simple for my son’s heart to navigate.

There have been seasons where I could see questions sitting in him before he even spoke them—questions about love, presence, and where he fits in someone’s world.

And eventually, those questions came out.

Soft at first… then more direct.

“Why?”
“Where is he?”
“Does he love me?”

And hearing that from your child changes something in you.

Because you’re standing in front of a heart that is trying to make sense of things far too big for his age.

In those moments, I’ve done what I know how to do. I’ve held him close. I’ve reassured him. I’ve stayed steady when his emotions weren’t. I’ve been the consistent place he can come back to when things feel unclear.

And sometimes, I’ve felt the weight of trying to fill every gap for him. To explain what doesn’t make sense. To soften what feels heavy. To be the answer to what he’s feeling.

But I’m learning something in this season that humbles me deeply:

I am not meant to carry the full weight of his healing.

I cannot be the answer to every ache in his heart.
I cannot control every outcome or every emotional ripple.
And I cannot step into places that only God can reach.

So I’m learning to release.

Not the love I give him.
Not the presence I show up with.
But the illusion of control.

Because I don’t have control over every part of his story.

I can only trust God with it.

Trust Him with my son’s questions.
Trust Him with the parts of his heart I don’t fully understand.
Trust Him with the healing that I cannot manufacture or manage.

And even trust Him with what I can’t see happening in others involved in his life—that God is able to work in ways I never could, softening hearts, restoring what feels complicated, and covering my son in ways I can’t always reach.

That kind of trust doesn’t come easily.

But it’s becoming necessary.

Because loving him well in this season doesn’t look like control—it looks like surrender.

It looks like consistency.
It looks like patience.
It looks like prayer when I don’t have the words for anything else.

And it looks like letting God be God in places where I have reached the limit of what I can do.

So I’m learning to let go… little by little.

Not of him.

But of what I was never meant to carry alone.

And somehow, in that release, I’m realizing love isn’t getting smaller.

It’s getting deeper.

Because maybe letting go isn’t the end of my influence as a mother…

Maybe it’s the beginning of trusting that I was never the only one guiding him.

The Lord has always been writing his story too.

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Easter: What Jesus Did for Us

Easter always brings me back to one thing… love.

Not easy love. Not convenient love.

But the kind of love that costs everything.

The story of Jesus Christ is not a distant story to me. It feels deeply personal when I sit with it.

Because what He went through… He didn’t deserve.

He was betrayed by someone close to Him.

Someone He shared moments with.

Someone who knew Him.

And that betrayal came with a kiss.

He was falsely accused even though there was no wrong in Him.

He was mocked, laughed at, and treated like He was nothing.

And still… He didn’t defend Himself.

He didn’t walk away.

He stayed.

They beat Him until His body was broken.

They spit on Him like He was worthless.

They placed a crown of thorns on His head—not to honor Him, but to wound Him.

Thorns pressing into His skin. Blood running down His face.

And He took it.

Not because He had to… but because He chose to.

For us.

That part breaks me every time.

Because it wasn’t just pain He was carrying—it was people.

People who would reject Him.

People who would not understand Him.

People who would fail again and again.

And He still went forward.

He carried the cross when His body could barely hold Him.

Every step heavy. Every breath harder. Every moment full of suffering.

And then they nailed Him to it.

Hands that healed were pierced.

Feet that walked in love were held still in pain.

And even in that moment… He spoke.

“Father, forgive them.”

While He was hurting… He was still forgiving.

That kind of love doesn’t make sense to me.

Because it is so pure… so undeserved… so overwhelming.

Easter is the reminder that this wasn’t just suffering for nothing.

It was a price being paid.

For sin.

For brokenness.

For us.

And then comes the part that holds both grief and hope at the same time…

He died.

And it felt like everything had ended.

Like hope was gone. Like silence had won.

But Sunday came.

The stone was rolled away.

The tomb was empty.

He rose.

And death did not get the final word.

But even in the resurrection… I don’t forget the suffering that came before it.

Because He went through all of that willingly.

He didn’t have to stay.

But He did.

And that’s what breaks me the most.

That kind of love… is hard to comprehend.

Easter is not just a story I read.

It’s something that humbles me every time I sit with it.

Because it reminds me that I am loved in a way I could never earn.

A love that suffered.

A love that stayed.

A love that gave everything.

And I don’t think I’ll ever read that story the same way again.

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When Is Enough, Enough?

How many moments will it take? How many close calls, heartbreaks, and losses before your heart finally cries out, “Enough”? How many nights chasing empty highs, fleeting pleasures, and the noise of this world before you pause and hear the quiet, persistent whisper of God calling your name?

Every time you’ve walked through danger and survived—every near miss, every moment you should have fallen but didn’t—that was His hand protecting you. Even when life feels chaotic, even when it seems like everything is falling apart, God is still holding you. He is still reaching, still waiting, still calling you to turn your eyes toward Him.

You don’t have to have it all figured out. You don’t need a perfect plan. You just need to stop. Breathe. Pause. And surrender. Open your heart. Open your hands. Tell Him everything—even your fears, your regrets, your doubts. He is listening. He is waiting.

Jeremiah 29:11 reminds us, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” Every heartbreak, every mistake, every step that felt like it was taking you further from Him, God is weaving into your story of redemption and hope.

Psalm 34:18 says, “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Even in your pain, even in your chaos, He is near. He sees you. He knows your struggle. He knows your heart.

Following Jesus isn’t always easy. It’s not always comfortable. It means picking up your cross every day, dying to yourself, letting go of control, and trusting Him even when the path is uncertain. It means allowing Him to refine you, slowly shaping you, preparing you for the life He’s been dreaming for you all along. Romans 12:2 reminds us: “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.”

So many chase temporary pleasures—money that never satisfies, attention that fades, lust that leaves emptiness, highs that vanish as quickly as they come. These things promise happiness but leave the soul hungry. True fulfillment, lasting joy, and freedom can only be found in Christ.

Your soul was made for Him. Your life was made for purpose. Your story is not over. The Lord is calling you. He is calling your heart to something higher, something deeper, something eternal.

Will you answer? Will you stop running? Will you surrender fully and let Him begin His work in you? Will you trust Him to walk with you through the process, the pain, the cross, and into the victory He has waiting for you?

Isaiah 40:31 reminds us: “But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

It won’t be easy. There will be struggles, setbacks, and moments of doubt. But the victory is real. The freedom is real. The life that awaits in His name is more beautiful than anything this world could offer.

When is enough, enough? The answer is now.


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I’m God’s Girl: Rooted, Chosen, and Spiritually Adorned

Do you ever feel like your worth depends on what the world sees?

How many likes you get.

How you look.

Your job title.

Your salary.

Your house, your car, your clothes.

Your relationship status.

Whether you have kids… or not.

Whether you succeed… or struggle.

Whether others notice you… or overlook you.

If all of that were taken away tomorrow…

Who would you be?

This is the question God wants us to wrestle with.

Because here’s the truth: no job title, no relationship, no material possession, no measure of perfection can define you.

You are God’s girl.

Isaiah 43:1 says:

“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are mine.”

You are redeemed.

You are chosen.

You are His.

Even when the world doesn’t notice.

Even when you feel unseen.

Even when mistakes, imperfections, or past failures haunt you…

Your value is not in what you do.

It is not in what you have.

It is not in what others think of you or have done to you.

It is in Him.

God is planting a garden in your life — a life that cannot be shaken by circumstances, people, or possessions.

Like seeds hidden beneath the soil, your roots are growing deep into Christ.

He waters you with His love.

He nurtures you with His truth.

He strengthens you in the secret places where no one else sees.

And in His perfect timing…

You will bloom.

You will flourish.

Your identity, your purpose, your beauty — your life — will rise in full.

Your identity is rooted in Christ, not the world.

Your worth is His gift, not something you earn or achieve.

Your peace is anchored, no matter the chaos around you.

So today, I want to challenge you:

If everything the world says defines you were stripped away…

Would you still know who you are?

Would you still know your value?

Would you still be confident in your identity?

You would.

Because you are God’s girl.

Chosen.

Loved.

Spiritually Adorned.

Rooted.

Redeemed.

Blooming in His secret garden.

Nothing you have.

Nothing you’ve done.

Nothing the world says about you…

Can take that away.

Remember this always:

You are God’s girl.

You are seen.

You are chosen.

You are adored.

You are beloved.

No one, no circumstance, no achievement, no relationship, no material possession, no title, no season, no judgment can ever change that.

💌 Share this with a woman who needs to hear it today.

Copy this, send her the link, or post it somewhere she will see: You are God’s girl. You are chosen. You are Spiritually Adorned.


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Obedient but Lonely: When Following God Still Feels Hard

There are moments in my walk with God that feel deeply fulfilling—and others that feel quietly heavy.

Yesterday was one of those heavy moments.

I showed up where I felt led.

I obeyed.

I did the work God placed in front of me.

And I wasn’t alone.

I had a friend with me —supportive, present, and kind—and I’m genuinely grateful for that. I even had the support of my boy. But even in good company, I felt a familiar ache rise up. Because friendship, as life-giving as it is, doesn’t replace the longing for a spouse.

It wasn’t loneliness from isolation.

It was the quiet realization that some moments are meant to be shared differently.

Following the Lord does not remove our humanity.

Obedience does not cancel longing.

Faith does not erase the ache of waiting.

I love God deeply. I trust His timing. I believe I am walking in His will. But even in obedience, there are days when the wait feels long—especially when you’re building, serving, and showing up without the partnership you desire.

This kind of longing isn’t a rejection of gratitude. It’s an acknowledgment of design. God created us for connection, and while community matters deeply, there is a distinct place in the heart reserved for covenant.

Wanting a spouse doesn’t mean I’m incomplete. It means I’m honest about how I was created.

There’s a misconception in faith spaces that if you’re truly surrendered, you won’t feel the ache anymore. But surrender doesn’t mean silence. It doesn’t mean pretending you’re unaffected. It means bringing the ache to God instead of burying it.

So today, I chose honesty.

Still faithful—but tired.

Still trusting—but longing.

Still believing—but human.

The waiting doesn’t mean God has forgotten me.

The loneliness doesn’t mean I’m behind.

It simply means the promise hasn’t arrived yet.

And until it does, I will continue to show up—obedient, grateful, and honest—trusting that God is working in the unseen, even when the wait feels heavy.

If you’re in a season where you’re surrounded by people yet still longing for partnership, know this: you’re not ungrateful, and you’re not faithless. You’re human… and God sees you.

Here’s a prayer for the waiting heart…

Lord,

Thank You for meeting me in my obedience—even when it feels heavy.

Thank You for the people You’ve placed around me and for the ways You sustain me through community.

Today, I bring You the honest parts of my heart.

The gratitude and the longing.

The faith and the fatigue.

The trust and the tears.

Help me to wait without hardening.

To hope without striving.

To remain open, surrendered, and soft in the process.

When the waiting feels long, remind me that You are still working.

When loneliness creeps in, remind me that I am seen.

And when my heart grows weary, strengthen me with Your peace.

I trust You with what I desire and with how You will fulfill it.

Until then, I choose obedience, honesty, and hope—one day at a time.

Amen.


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Less Clutter, More Him. Learning Contentment and Trusting God’s Provision

I’ve never been someone who rejected the pleasures of life. I enjoy the little things—beauty, creativity, moments of joy. But the more I grow in my walk with Jesus, the more I notice my heart changing. My interest in worldly desires isn’t what it used to be—not because I was ever obsessed with them, but because my joy is being re-centered. What once felt exciting no longer compares to serving Him and living for His purpose.

God has been calling me to declutter—not just my space, but my focus. Less distraction. Less striving. Less attachment to things that don’t hold eternal value. Even when my bank account doesn’t seem to reflect the plans God has placed in my heart, He continues to make a way. As a single mother with one income, He doesn’t just provide—He provides abundantly.

My son is in sports, well cared for, and never lacking. Our needs are met, and beyond that, God still allows room for joy. I still get to enjoy the finer things of life—not as an idol, but as a gift. This season has shown me that trusting God doesn’t lead to deprivation; it leads to peace, provision, and overflow in the ways that matter most.

My joy now looks like obedience. It looks like standing at my farmers market—selling, creating, and talking about Jesus. It looks like conversations that point people back to Him. It looks like creating merch that glorifies God and using entrepreneurship as a tool to expand His kingdom. Somehow, He lets me serve Him, provide for my family, build community, and still enjoy life—all at once.

There are things I still desire. I desire a home. I desire a husband. I desire the promises God has spoken over my life. But I’ve learned that I can desire those things without being discontent where I am. My circumstances aren’t perfect—but they’re not terrible either. And right here, in the middle of it all, my joy remains steady.

One of the sweetest blessings in this season has been the friendships God has sent into my life. I get to enjoy and build deep, trusting connections with friends who encourage me, pray with me, speak truth in love, and walk alongside me in faith. These relationships remind me that God is intentional—not just about provision, but about community.

I have what matters most: true peace in Jesus, the joy of the Lord, freedom from sin, meaningful friendships, and the ability to fully enjoy my role as a mom. This season is one of preparation—preparing to be a wife, expanding my ministry, growing community, and building with purpose. Instead of rushing ahead, I’m learning to rest right here and trust God’s timing.

Less clutter. More Him. Less striving. More trust. Less focus on what’s missing—and more gratitude for what He’s already done.

“Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us.” — Ephesians 3:20


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To the Woman God Knew I needed…

Some people carry a lot… more than most will ever see or understand.

They don’t lead with their burdens, and they don’t make room for pity. They simply keep going.

This post is for someone like that.

She carries a lot, yet somehow still finds space to show up for me. She listens. She encourages. She speaks life when I feel tired, uncertain, or stretched thin. Even while holding her own weight, she reminds me to lift my eyes back to God.

In many ways, she has been a mentor to me— steady, wise, and grounding. There’s a quiet, motherly care in how she covers me with prayer, offers counsel, and gently corrects when needed. She doesn’t try to take God’s place in my life—she reflects Him. The love, patience, and discernment she carries make it easy to see God working through her.

What I appreciate most is how she points me to truth.

When I waver, she reminds me to stand on God’s promises.

When I feel weary, she speaks strength.

When my faith feels tested, she encourages me not to let go of what God has said.

She doesn’t rush my process or minimize my struggles. Instead, she gently anchors me back to what matters—faith, obedience, trust, and hope in God’s timing.

That kind of encouragement is sacred.

It takes humility to pour into someone else while carrying your own unseen load. It takes maturity to encourage faith when life itself requires endurance. And it takes a deep walk with God to consistently remind others of His promises, not just your own opinions.

This is my way of saying thank you.

Thank you for being steady.

Thank you for mentoring me with wisdom and love.

Thank you for encouraging my faith.

Thank you for reminding me that God is faithful even when the road feels long.

Your presence is a gift, and your encouragement has mattered more than you know.

I love you friend.

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When Relationships Challenge Your Faith

Loving someone who doesn’t believe in God can be deeply confusing. You may feel torn between hope and heartbreak—wanting to trust that God can move, while also feeling the weight of spiritual misalignment.

Walking away isn’t about giving up on someone. It’s about honoring God, your faith, and the direction He’s calling you to walk.

It may be time to step back when your relationship consistently pulls you away from God rather than closer to Him. When you find yourself compromising your convictions, silencing your faith, or shrinking spiritually just to maintain connection, that’s not love—it’s costly disobedience.

Scripture reminds us not to be unequally yoked, not because unbelievers are less valuable, but because unity in faith matters. A relationship should sharpen your walk with God, not strain it. If you’re constantly carrying the spiritual weight alone—praying alone, hoping alone, believing alone—that burden will eventually become heavy.

There’s also wisdom in recognizing patterns. If someone continually resists God, mocks faith, or shows no desire to pursue truth, you cannot love them into belief. Only God can change a heart. Your role is faithfulness, not transformation.

Sometimes walking away is an act of trust—trusting God with what you cannot fix, and trusting that obedience will always lead to peace, even when it hurts.

Ask yourself:

• Does this relationship honor God?

• Am I growing spiritually or drifting?

• Is this producing peace or confusion?

If God is calling you to let go, He will never do it without grace. He will replace what you release with deeper intimacy with Him and greater clarity for your future.

You’re not wrong for loving deeply. And you’re not faithless for walking away.

Sometimes obedience looks like surrender—and surrender always makes room for God to move.

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I hope this message encourages those of you who find yourself outgrowing the old—whether that looks like family dynamics, friendships, or romantic partnerships. Growth can feel lonely, especially when the people you love don’t understand the direction God is leading you.

If you’re in a season where your faith is deepening and your relationships feel strained, know that you’re not wrong for growing. Outgrowing certain dynamics doesn’t mean you’ve stopped loving—it often means God is inviting you to love differently.

Sometimes faithfulness requires distance. Sometimes it requires new boundaries. And sometimes it simply requires trusting God with what you can no longer carry. You are not responsible for changing hearts—that work belongs to the Lord alone.

If God is asking you to release, pause, or reposition a relationship, He will meet you with grace in the letting go. He will comfort you, guide you, and remind you that obedience never leads to loss—only to deeper peace and alignment.

You are allowed to grow. You are allowed to choose God, even when it’s hard. And you are never walking alone—He goes before you, walks beside you, and holds what you surrender.

May this season draw you closer to Him, and may every step of obedience bring clarity, peace, and trust in what He is still unfolding. 🤍.

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I Don’t Know How I Got Here— Only That God Led Me

There are moments when I pause and look at my life and think,

How did this happen?

Not in confusion, but in awe.

I don’t know how I became a business owner.

I don’t know how the farmers market even came about.

I don’t know how the blog grew into something that now touches real lives, creates community, and opens doors I never planned for.

What I do know is this:

This life doesn’t feel like the old me.

It feels built.

Carefully. Intentionally.

By God.

None of this was my master plan.

The blog wasn’t a brand idea—it was obedience… a place to pour out... aa place to encourage others…

The products weren’t a business goal—it was a piece created to spark conversation.

The farmer’s market wasn’t a dream—it was a door God opened to connect.

Scripture says His thoughts are not our thoughts, and His ways are higher than our ways—and I am living proof of that.

I didn’t strive for this life.

I surrendered into it.

And to think it all began in the secret place…

Three years ago, I gave my life to the Lord fully.

Not perfectly.

Not easily.

But honestly.

I laid down my plans.

I let go of people I loved.

I released worldly things that once felt important.

The surrender was painful—but it was holy.

And from that hidden place—where no one could see—God began writing a life I never could have imagined for myself.

From that place came the blog.

From the blog came the farmer’s market.

From the farmer’s market came connection.

From the connection came conversations, wisdom, growth, and community.

I’ve learned how to steward.

How to endure.

How to listen.

How to grow in wisdom.

I’m being taught—not just how to build something—but how to become someone.

A woman anchored in Christ.

A woman learning what it means to prepare for marriage.

A woman allowing God to shape her heart before shaping her future.

What’s unfolding in my life feels gentle but powerful.

Quiet but expansive.

It’s not about titles or platforms.

It’s not about business or numbers.

It’s about a life fully yielded to God.

I’m watching Him birth beautiful things from places that once felt broken.

I’m watching Him replace what I laid down with something far greater.

And I know—deep in my spirit—that this is only the beginning…

This is my encouragement to you:

If you’re in a season where obedience feels costly…

If letting go feels painful…

If your life doesn’t look anything like what you imagined…

Take heart.

God builds beautifully from surrender.

And what He writes will always be better than what we plan.

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways,” declares the Lord.

— Isaiah 55:8–9

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From Promise to Preparation

Three years ago, God gave me a vision — with that vision came a promise… one that I’ve carried in my heart ever since. He promised me that I would be a wife. Back then, it felt far away — something I could only grasp in the spirit. But lately, I’ve sensed a shift. What was once only seen by faith is now beginning to take form in my life.

This season feels different. It’s as if everything God has been cultivating within me — the pruning, the healing, the waiting — has all been leading to this moment of alignment. I don’t have my husband yet, but I feel closer to the promise than ever before. It’s not just something I believe in my spirit anymore; I can feel the preparation happening around me and within me.

God has been teaching me that becoming a Proverbs 31 woman isn’t about waiting for a title — it’s about being shaped for it. I’ve noticed this transformation in the smallest details of my daily life. I’ve started preparing more home-cooked meals with joy and intention. My capacity has grown — balancing single motherhood, a full-time job, my ministry, my blog, and now even my own business. I’m preparing with my hands, just as the Proverbs 31 woman “works with willing hands” (Proverbs 31:13).

This isn’t about striving or trying to make something happen. It’s about alignment. It’s about allowing God to prepare me for what He’s already promised. It was all in His timing.

This is more than a busy season — it’s a becoming season. I sense God doing a new thing, expanding my heart, my hands, and my home. He’s increasing my capacity, refining my character, and teaching me how to steward the promise before it arrives.

I may not see the full picture yet, but I can feel the pieces coming together. There’s a peace and readiness in my spirit — a knowing that I’m closer than I’ve ever been. There is an inner joy and excitement stirring within my spirit.

Isaiah 43:19 says, “Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?”

And I do! I perceive it. I feel it. I can’t quite explain it.

This is the shift. This is the season where faith meets preparation, and what God spoke begins to come alive in new ways.

If you’re in your own season of waiting, take heart — God’s promises don’t expire. Even when you don’t see it, He’s aligning everything behind the scenes. Every act of obedience, every season of pruning, every new step of faith is part of your preparation.

He’s not just preparing the promise for you — He’s preparing YOU for the promise.

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God of the Double Portion: He Cares for the Birds, He Cares for You Too

Sometimes, God speaks in the quietest moments — a whisper in prayer, the flutter of birds outside, or a small, unexpected blessing. Over the past few days, I’ve experienced His care in ways that left me in awe: from a lost package that turned into a double portion, to prophetic confirmations from friends, to tender lessons through my son. Each moment reminded me that God sees us, provides for us, and is faithful even when life feels uncertain.

One morning, I was sitting in my car in prayer, seeking guidance and just being still with Him. As I looked up, little birds were flitting around the trees, and in that simple, peaceful moment, the verse came to my heart:

“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?” (Matthew 6:26)

It felt like the Lord was whispering directly to me: “If I take care of them, how much more will I take care of you?”

At the same time, I found myself reading the book of Job, reflecting on how he lost everything yet received double in the end. I didn’t realize God was about to give me a glimpse of that same promise in my own life.

It began with a package — one I had ordered being delivered to my old address, a place I no longer had access to. My chest sank with frustration. Although, I was able to get in contact with the residents at my old address— there was doubt of the package not being returned. So, the next morning, I contacted the company & surprisingly they offered to send me an entirely new package free of charge. I later got confirmation that— the residents did retrieve the package and that it would be waiting for me to come and pick up. In that moment, I realized God didn’t just restore what I thought I lost — He multiplied it. I had both the old and the new. Just like Job, I received double, and it felt intentional and personal.

Later that day, I bumped into a close friend of mine a work — a woman full of wisdom and prophetic insight. We shared a conversation in which the presence of the Holy Spirit was unmistakable. She confirmed what God had been impressing on my heart, not only about how discomfort can push us toward the new — not as punishment, but as preparation — but also about the ways God knocks on the door of our lives. He invites us into new seasons, and it’s up to us to take the leap of faith. Sometimes that invitation comes through our circumstances, through the pressure of feeling uncomfortable, or through moments that challenge us to trust Him. We have to respond, open the door, and step into what He has prepared.

Then, another dear friend shared prophetic art from her group. Every piece featured birds. God’s message seemed to repeat over and over: “If I care for the birds, I will care for you.” Even the videos that appeared in my TikTok feed that day mirrored the same Scripture. Everywhere I looked, I saw reminders of God’s faithfulness, provision, and perfect timing.

That night, God spoke to me in a tender, personal way through my son. He had misplaced something for school and was worried about what others might think. He feared his classmates would notice or that his teacher would be upset. He didn’t want to tell anyone, worried he might get in trouble. In his distress, I sat beside him and said:

“You have nothing to worry about. If it’s a big deal, the teacher will let me know. But you already came to me first, and now I can respond knowing your heart. You’re safe. You’re fine. It’s okay. You’re not in trouble. I’ve got you covered. There’s nothing to fear.”

In that quiet moment, I felt God whisper to my heart: “That’s exactly how I feel about you. Who do you have to fear? You don’t have to fear human opinions or circumstances. If I am for you, who can be against you? I already know your heart.”

Through these moments — the package, the prophetic words, the art, the reminders in unexpected places, and even the small, tender moment with my son… God reminded me that His care is personal and His provision is faithful. It’s not dependent on others, circumstances, or what we see around us. He knows our hearts, goes before us, and protects, provides, and prepares the way.

Even in seasons where it feels like everything is lost or uncertain, God is already working behind the scenes. He cares for us deeply and our circumstances. No matter how challenging they may seem; they cannot overcome His power. Our finances, careers, past mistakes, failed relationships, health, or any situation that feels impossible are never bigger than our God. When we keep our eyes on Him and remember who He is, we can trust that He is faithful, He sees us, and He is already moving in ways we cannot yet imagine — turning what was broken into something greater and preparing us for the blessings He has in store.

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Going Through the Motions…

Here we are… another day. Some days are filled with Joy, Peace, and Thanksgiving. It’s on those days that I feel God’s mercies are new every morning. (Lamentations 3:22-23) It’s on those days where I feel refreshed! I feel hopeful! I feel excitement for what’s to come! I’m praising & worshiping the Lord! I find myself blasting worship & dancing with my 9-year-old boy! Life is good and I am enjoying the season God has me in!

Then, there’s days like today, where my emotions are everywhere. They feel high, they feel low, and sometimes I can’t even pinpoint exactly what I am feeling. It’s a sense of feeling overwhelmed and border line - coo coo! I like to blame it on “red ribbon week” perhaps coming along, or hormonal changes, lack of sleep, aging, yada, yada, yada. Although, those may all be contributing factors, I’ve come to find out that it all comes down to the spiritual battle in our minds! I have felt this “feeling” even as a kid growing up. Satan has been planning and plotting for years! He uses our current circumstances and emotions to manipulate, and feed us lies to TRY and overpower the truth. The truth is WE are a child of God. You and I are protected, and God has big plans for us & our future. (Jeremiah 29:11)

The enemy knows that and will try to get us to give into our “emotions” and flesh. This consists of giving into the anxiety, fear, discouragement, restlessness, jealousy, bitterness, impulsiveness, irritability, impatience, anger, selfishness, envy, and so much more! But we must put on our armor and be vigilant at all times! The enemy comes lurking, seeking who he can devour. (Ephesians 6:10-18, John 10:10, 1 Peter 5:8)

It’s up to us if we are going to decide to come into agreement with the enemy OR God. We must be ready for the spiritual attacks. If the enemy can grab hold of your mind and thoughts, he will start to influence your thinking to distract you, deceive you, and defeat you by getting you to doubt God’s truth and promises.

Here are some steps to take back what’s ALREADY rightfully yours:

  1. We must take every thought captive

    As soon as you recognize a thought that does not align with God’s character or word- rebuke it! (2 Cor. 10:5)

  2. Speak God’s truth over your mind

    Meditate on God’s word and truth by reading scripture. (Romans 12:2)

  3. Reaffirm your Identity in Christ

    Remind yourself who you are! You are a child of The Most High! Your Identity is in Jesus (John 8:36)

  4. Seek Fellowship

    I find encouragement from trusted friends are essenital. I always walk away feeling encouraged and overall better for venting and getting things off my chest. You are not alone. We were made to be in community and partnership. (Ecclesiastes 4:9)

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God’s Promise is Worth the Wait

Years ago, a sweet sister in Christ gifted me a book called, “Singled Out in a Couples World” by Christa Smith. At the time, I was in a season of deep faith, believing God for a marriage promise He had spoken over my life. I didn’t know then how much this book would minister to me years later.

This week, I picked it up again and landed on a chapter about Abraham, Sarah, and Isaac. It revisited the moment when Abraham and Sarah grew tired of waiting for God’s promise of a child. Instead of trusting His timing, they went outside of His will and decided to take matters into their own hands — Abraham slept with Hagar, Sarah’s maidservant, to produce a son.

But that wasn’t the son God had promised.

Even so, God remained faithful. In His timing, He still gave them Isaac — the true promise. The author highlights that Isaac’s-whose very name means laughter- becomes the embodiment of that promise, not just in fulfillment but in the joyful surprise of it. She highlights it can be seen as God’s “sense of humor” that He would fulfill His promise in their old age, even after they hadn’t been perfectly patient.

This morning, I was reflecting on the story of Sarah and Abraham and how tempting it can be to “help God out” when the wait feels too long. Later this same morning, I pulled over with my coffee and decided to pray. I asked the Lord for a word — and He led me straight to Genesis 21, which mentioned the story of Abraham, Isaac, and Sarah again. I had no clue the same story I read last night in this book would be brought up to me in prayer in scripture! I had no clue where this story was located in the bible. It felt like a divine nudge, a gentle reminder: “Don’t get distracted. Don’t get desperate. Stay the course with Me. My promise still stands”

For me, this meant God was reminding me of His promise — it was about trusting God to fulfill His word without me stepping outside of His will. That means not entertaining distractions that might pull me away from His best, and not settling for counterfeits that look like the promise but aren’t. It’s not becoming desperate and trying to make things happen on my own.

Maybe you’re in your own waiting season — for a spouse, for a breakthrough, for a God-sized dream to come to life. The story of Abraham and Sarah shows us that:

  • God’s promises don’t require our own control.

  • Distractions and desperation can delay our peace, but they can’t cancel God’s word.

  • Even when we’re imperfect in our patience, God is faithful.

When God fulfills your promise, it won’t just be a moment of joy — it will be a testimony of His timing, His ways, and His glory. And just like Abraham and Sarah, you might even laugh at how God made it happen — in a way and time you never could have imagined.

Stay in His will. Guard your heart. Trust His timing.

Because your “Isaac” will be worth the wait.


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When God Doesn’t Give the Sign You Asked For

Trusting Him Even When It Hurts…

This morning, I felt something I don’t like to admit—I was upset with God. I woke up angry.

I had prayed specifically the day before. I came to Him with faith, with expectation, asking Him to confirm something that’s been heavy on my heart. I believed He could show me—He’s done it before. So I waited.

But nothing happened.

And that silence? It stung.

I started to feel frustrated and disappointed. Not because I didn’t believe He could speak—but because I didn’t understand why He didn’t. He’s God.

Have you ever felt that way? You pray with sincerity, you expect Him to answer, and instead, you’re met with… nothing.

That was me. Wrestling with my own discomfort, trying to make sense of the silence.

But as I sat with the Lord, I realized something that gently corrected my heart:

“Sometimes God doesn’t respond the way we expect” because He’s teaching us to trust Him more than the outcome.

I wanted relief. I wanted clarity. But what God wanted was my surrender.

He wasn’t being cruel.

He wasn’t ignoring me.

He was inviting me to let go of the control I was clinging to.

Still 3 years later of my journey with Him… I struggle with this time to time.

What I’m learning is this:

  • Faith is not always built on signs.
    Sometimes it’s built in silence. Trust in Him— not answers.

  • God is still good when He doesn’t give us what we asked for.
    And His “no” or “not yet” is just as loving as His “yes.” He’s teaching us things even in the silence.

  • When I feel distant, He’s often drawing me closer.
    Not to fix things for me, but to form something in me.

  • When things don’t go according to my plan and my thoughts, I remember that my ways are not His.

I’ve asked for forgiveness today—not because I was honest about my feelings (God welcomes that), but because I tried to take the reins of something only He fully understands. I let fear and discomfort make me reach for control instead of resting in His hands.

And still, He met me with grace. No shame. Just love.

So if you’re in a similar space—feeling let down, confused, or uncertain—I want you to know:

God hasn’t forgotten you.

He’s not punishing you.

He’s protecting you—even from answers that might come too soon.

“Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him…”

— Psalm 37:7a

“My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”

— 2 Corinthians 12:9

Let’s keep trusting Him—even when it’s quiet. Even when it hurts.

Because the silence isn’t the end of the story.

It may just be the beginning of a deeper surrender.


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God is Opening the Heavens for You.

As I was in my car on the way to work—I was praying, asking God about my husband—the one I’ve been believing for, waiting for, and trusting Him to bring in His perfect time. This particular day, I wanted to be raw and real with my feelings. God already knows the desires of my heart. His word says, “you have not because you ask not.” So — there I was, bringing my deepest longings and desires to my Heavenly Father. In the quietness of that moment, I asked the Lord to speak to me. I didn’t want a vague feeling or wishful thinking—I wanted His voice. His clarity. His confirmation.

And then immediately—something unexpected happened.

As soon as I turned the bend while on my drive— I looked up and saw the rays of sunlight breaking through the sky— they were the most beautiful, radiant beams pouring down from the heavens. And in that moment, I heard Him speak:

“I will open up the heavens for you.”

It wasn’t just a phrase. It was a promise.

If you’re reading this and your heart aches in the waiting—whether it’s for a husband, healing, a dream to come to life, or simply a sense of clarity—I believe this word is for you too:

God is opening the heavens over your life.

Where there has been delay, He is making a way.

Where there has been silence, He is now speaking.

Where it felt like nothing was moving, heaven has been moving all along.

The sunlight was more than just weather—it was a sign of divine movement. Rays from heaven breaking through symbolized hope, favor, and alignment.

Sometimes God confirms His promises not just with words, but with visible signs of His nearness.

If you’ve been contending for something with tears, prayer, and faith, know this: He sees you. He has not forgotten you.

This word may be especially for those who, like me, have surrendered the dream of marriage into God’s hands. You’ve chosen not to settle, not to force anything—but to wait for what is heaven-sent.

And here’s what I believe God is saying to us:

“I will open up the heavens for you. What you couldn’t bring together in your own strength, I am aligning by My Spirit. The love story I’m writing for you is rooted in Me. You haven’t missed it. You’re not behind. I’m preparing something sacred.”

Waiting on God isn’t wasted time—it’s watering time. And right when the soil of our hearts is fully surrendered, heaven releases the rain. Or, in this case, the light.

So take heart. If you’ve been praying, asking God to speak, and longing for His move…

This is your reminder: Heaven is responding.

Keep watching. Keep waiting.

The heavens are opening—just for you.


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When God Goes Before You: Trusting the Shift You Didn’t See Coming

“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

— Deuteronomy 31:8

A year ago, I stepped into a temporary season—one I knew wouldn’t last forever. I had a sense it was only meant to be for a time. I didn’t know what would come next or how, but I had peace that God would make a way when the time came.

And suddenly, the time came.

The transition happened quickly and unexpectedly. What I thought I’d have more time to prepare for; I had to step into with little warning. But here’s what amazed me: God had already gone before me. Before I even knew change was coming, the details were taken care of. A space was already made available. The location was already aligned. And the place my heart was beginning to grow familiar with? It was time to let go.

I wasn’t fully comfortable where I was, but I was starting to settle in. I was starting to adapt. I was beginning to know the rhythm of things, to find small comfort in the routine. And right there, at the edge of familiarity; God began to stir things up again.

He reminded me that this life is seasonal. That comfort isn’t the goal—obedience is. That we are often moved not because something’s wrong, but because there’s something greater ahead.

If this had happened in a previous season, I would have panicked. I don’t naturally do well with sudden change. I’m a planner, someone who needs to process things deeply. But something is different this time. Something in me has changed.

Perhaps it’s maturity.

Maybe it’s spiritual growth.

Maybe it’s the evidence of grace doing it’s quiet steady work in my heart.

God has been giving me endurance for transitions. Peace in the stretching. Strength for the letting go. And clarity that even when I feel unsettled, I am not unprotected.

This is what Deuteronomy 31:8 means to me right now:

“The Lord himself goes before you…” — He sees what’s ahead, even when you don’t.

“…and will be with you…” — He walks with you into the unknown.

“…He will never leave you nor forsake you…” — He won’t abandon you mid-transition.

Sometimes we think if God is in it, everything will feel steady. But I’m learning that God can be fully in something and still allow it to move.

Every shift is part of the bigger story. Every letting go is leading to something greater.

So if you’re in a place where everything feels like it’s changing and you didn’t see it coming, I want to encourage you:

God is not surprised. He’s already prepared what you haven’t yet seen.

This is just a transition, not the end.

This is movement, not punishment.

This is purpose, not chaos.

You may feel uprooted, but you are still in His hands.

You may feel unsure, but you are not alone.

You may feel like things are shifting too fast, but nothing escapes His timing.

“Do not be afraid. Do not be discouraged. The Lord himself goes before you.”

— Deuteronomy 31:8

And that’s enough for me to take the next step — even without knowing all the details.

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When You’re Planting Seeds and Trusting God for the Harvest

Lately, I’ve felt like I’ve been sowing seeds on every front—believing for the promises God whispered over my life, trusting Him for breakthrough, marriage, and preparing to step away from the job that no longer aligns with where He’s leading me.

But let’s be real: planting can feel discouraging when the soil seems dry and the harvest feels far off.

There are moments I wonder if anything I’m doing is even working—if my prayers are reaching Heaven, if the small quiet steps I’m taking in obedience are really enough.

And then, God reminded me that He sees it all. He reminded me through someone I didn’t expect.

While working one day, I ran into someone I hadn’t seen in a long time—someone who holds a meaningful place in my heart. She’s the sister of someone I used to be close to; someone connected to a chapter of my life that still holds meaning. Though our lives have gone in different directions, seeing her again felt divinely timed.

We reconnected so effortlessly— as if no time had passed. There was a sweet, sisterly warmth between us as we exchanged hugs, laughs, and caught up with small updates. It felt genuine, comforting, and filled with the kind of love that only God could have orchestrated in that moment. Somewhere amongst the conversation, she smiled and said, “You’re still in the family photos.”

It might have seemed like a small comment, but it touched something deep in me. To know that I still hold a place in her heart- and that my son and I’s presence is still visible in her home where memories were made- meant more than she probably realized. It reminded me that some connections leave a lasting imprint, and God can use them to whisper; “You are not forgotten. You’re still seen. You still matter. You are still part of the bigger picture I’m painting.”

About a week or so later, she called me unexpectedly. I wasn’t sure what prompted it at first—but as she started talking, my heart knew this was God.

She had overheard some of my employees talking negatively about me. And not only did she take the time to call me and let me know, but she also told me how upset she was. She said she was shaking and frustrated by the way they were speaking—and she even intervened in the moment. She told them, “Well, tell Kayla I said hi,” just to make it clear that she was listening, that she knew me, and that she wasn’t okay with the way they were speaking.

I can’t explain how much that meant to me.

It reminded me that God places the right people in your path to protect, encourage, and confirm what He’s already been saying in secret.

And He knew I needed that.

I wasn’t as concerned about the remarks that were being shared because I know the Lord is my vindicator. But— I was in awe with how God brought something I was unaware of into the light.

I continued on to share with her a little bit of how I felt God was calling me out of there and how this was confirmation. I told her I had been applying for jobs here and there and as we talked, the phrase “planting seeds” came about. For weeks, I’d been sensing the Lord saying the same thing to me in prayer:

“Keep sowing those seeds.”

So, I told her:

“That’s exactly what I’ve been holding onto—faith without works is dead. I’ve been taking steps, even without knowing how it’s all going to unfold. I’m planting those seeds.”

She responded with so much encouragement and kindness.

She told me she’d be praying for me, especially for new job opportunities, and she spoke life over my qualifications.

“With all of your manager experience, I believe you’ll find something.”

She even shared her own personal testimony as encouragement.

It was more than a conversation—it was confirmation.

A moment where Heaven echoed back to me: You heard me right. I’m calling you out of this place. Keep being obedient. Keep applying. Keep planting.

“Faith without works is dead.” — James 2:26

I’ve been walking out what God is whispering—applying to jobs, making space for the new, and letting go of what no longer bears fruit.

I don’t always feel confident.

I don’t always feel equipped.

But I do know this: God meets us in motion.

Faith means moving—even with uncertainty.

It means showing up in obedience, even when you don’t see the full picture yet.

“In due season, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” — Galatians 6:9

Even when doors close.

Even in the waiting.

Even when people talk.

Even when it feels like you’re the only one walking in faith.

God is still working behind the scenes.

He is the God of the process—not just the outcome.

And He is faithful to bring something beautiful out of every seed planted in trust.

If you’re in a similar place—waiting, sowing, trying to stay obedient while everything still feels unclear—I just want to say:

You’re not alone.

God sees your steps.

He hears your prayers.

And He knows exactly who and what you need along the way.

Whether it’s a divine conversation, a random encounter, or an unexpected phone call… He’ll remind you:

You’re seen.

You’re covered.

And your harvest is coming.

So keep planting.

Keep trusting.

Keep surrendering the outcome to the One who never wastes a single seed.

If you ever happen to read this… thank you.

Thank you for showing up with so much love, honesty, and warmth. You didn’t have to call me, but you did— and your words, your heart, and even your boldness to speak up on my behalf meant more than you know.

That conversation reminded me that God sees me, but it also reminded me that you still see me too. I’ll always carry that moment with gratitude. Sending love to you and the family - you all still hold a special place in my heart.

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Godly Friendships: Prayerful Support, Honest Conversation, and Hope in Waiting

Friendships are one of God’s greatest gifts—especially in seasons of waiting and uncertainty. I’m in a season of singleness, praying for God’s promises to come to pass, and believing for loved ones He’s placed on my heart.

Through it all, God has surrounded me with friends who pray with me, remind me of truth, and encourage me to keep hoping even when I doubt. Today, I want to honor these friends. They are evidence of God’s grace in my life.

There is a special power in friends who truly pray for you. I’m so grateful for friends who don’t just say “I’ll pray” but actually do it. The friends who faithfully lift up my name, my loved ones, and my hopes before God.

They’ve prayed with me and even for a person they’ve never met, asking God to move in ways only He can. They’ve prayed for my heart to stay surrendered. And they’ve interceded for my journey in singleness… that I would use this time well and stay close to Jesus.

“Therefore confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.” – James 5:16

One of the most beautiful parts of godly friendship is being able to share your heart honestly. I can tell these friends when I’m struggling, when I miss someone deeply, when doubt creeps in about what God promised. They never judge or dismiss me. They listen. They speak truth in love. They remind me that my feelings are real, but God’s Word is even more real.

“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.” – Galatians 6:2

These friends don’t let me stay in discouragement. When I waver, they remind me of what God has spoken. They share Scripture that renews my hope. They remind me of His faithfulness so I’ll trust Him for the future.

Their words often come exactly when I need them most—like gentle confirmations that God sees me and is still working.

“As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.” – Proverbs 27:17

I won’t pretend I never doubt. Waiting is hard. There are days when the promises seem far away and I wonder if I heard God right.

But my friends have sat with me in those moments. They’ve let me be real about the pain. And then they’ve spoken life over me, encouraging me to keep believing, to keep waiting with expectancy, and to remember that God’s timing is perfect.

Their faith strengthens mine. Their hope rubs off on me. Their love reflects Jesus to me.

“Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.” – 1 Thessalonians 5:11

To my friends who have prayed with me over my loved ones, who have encouraged me in singleness, who have reminded me of God’s promises when I wanted to give up—i love you deeply, thank you.

I see you. I honor you. I’m so grateful for you. You’ve shown me what it means to carry one another’s burdens and to love as Christ loves. You’ve been answers to my own prayers for godly friendships and sisterhood.

I pray God blesses you richly for the way you’ve blessed me.

If you’re reading this and you have friends like this, thank God for them. Let them know how much they mean to you.

If you’re longing for these friendships, ask God to send them. He knows your need. And ask Him to help you be that kind of friend to others—a friend who prays, listens without judgment, speaks wisdom, and encourages hope.

Because godly friendships don’t just make the waiting bearable… they help us see God in the waiting.

Father, thank You for the gift of friendship. Thank You for friends who pray, encourage, and walk with us in seasons of waiting. Bless them abundantly. Help us to be those kinds of friends too—reflecting Your love, grace, and truth. For anyone longing for these friendships, I ask You to provide them in Your perfect timing. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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The Beauty of Virtue: What it means to be “Spiritually Adorned” by our Heavenly Father.

The Birth of “Spiritually Adorn”

“Spiritually Adorn” was birthed from a place of brokenness—but more importantly, from a divine encounter with God’s love and restoration.

In 2019, I walked through the deep valley of divorce. Then in 2022, another heartbreak unraveled me. I reached the end of myself. I no longer recognized who I was. My worth had been entangled in titles, achievements, relationships, and other people’s opinions. I had placed my identity in everything but Christ.

One day, sobbing on the floor of my bathtub, I cried out, “Why, God? Am I even called to be a wife? First a divorce… and now this?” In that raw moment of surrender, God met me. He whispered Proverbs 31:10 into my spirit. I had never even studied that scripture before—but in that moment, I knew He was confirming that yes, I was called to be a wife.

That was the beginning of my healing. God began to redefine my identity—not as a woman rejected, but as a woman redeemed. He showed me that being a wife wasn’t just about a role—it was about becoming a woman of virtue, adorned not in the external, but in His Spirit. He began teaching me what it means to walk in purity, in dignity, in purpose, and in the power of the Holy Spirit.

During all of this, God sent me a friend, through His divine alignment—one I know was handpicked by Jesus Himself. Through our conversations, tears, and shared revelations, the name Spiritually Adorn was born. It wasn’t just a title—it was a revelation. A declaration of who God was calling me to be, and what He was calling me to create.

Through this journey, I’ve learned that true adornment is spiritual. It’s being clothed in righteousness, healed from within, and rooted as a beloved daughter of the King.

My prayer is that this blog becomes a sacred space for women like you—to rediscover your God-given worth, walk boldly in your identity, and be adorned in the beauty of holiness. You are chosen. You are valuable. You are Spiritually Adorned.


With Love,

Kayla

Line drawing of a rose with the words "Spontaneously Adore" written in cursive beneath it.