My Testimony:
Surrendered and Transformed
Towards the end of 2019, I cried out to the Lord for the first time in a real and desperate way. I was walking through the pain of divorce, suddenly navigating life as a single mom. During that time, I started going to church, talking to God more, and opening my Bible. Slowly but surely, I began to feel like myself again—confident, renewed, even joyful. God carried me through what I believed was the darkest time of my life. I remember hearing Him so clearly say, “Dust your feet off.” I had done all I could to save my marriage, but God had another plan.
After healing from the heartbreak, I believed I was ready to date again. But instead of being led by the Spirit, I allowed myself to be influenced by the world. I replied to random DMs, entertained conversations I wasn’t truly invested in, and accepted dates with people I wasn’t even attracted to. COVID had shifted everything, but I thought it was finally my time to “live” after being with my ex-husband since the age of 12. People around me said I should explore and enjoy life—but that advice backfired.
Here’s what I didn’t realize: Although, I was healed from my ex-husband. I no longer loved him or longed to be with him, but I was still deeply wounded. I was carrying the pain and the changed perspective that the divorce left behind—especially about marriage and love. I had lost trust in people, misunderstood what love was, and no longer saw the value in marriage. My healing from him didn’t mean my heart had healed from the trauma I endured.
Eventually, I entered a new relationship—but my walls were up, and I sabotaged it. That heartbreak, caused largely by my own unhealed places and poor actions, brought me back to my knees. In 2022, I found myself broken once again, crying out to God in full surrender. But this time, I didn’t come with a list of desires or expectations. I gave God my heart, my life, and my plans.
That surrender changed everything.
God began speaking to me more clearly—through scripture, dreams, and visions. I had divine encounters with Him that planted the seeds for this blog. (I’ll be sharing those encounters in detail here soon.)
In that sacred place of surrender, God began healing parts of me I didn’t even know were broken. He restored my view of love, revealed my worth, and rebuilt me on His firm foundation. He showed me how to hear His voice, how to let go of guilt and shame, and how to walk in His purpose for my life. His Spirit started pruning and purifying me. He removed the veil and led me through a beautiful process of sanctification.
I now walk in a freedom I never thought possible. Not perfection—but peace. And a firm knowing that my value, identity, and purpose are rooted in Christ alone.
As I share my journey with you, my prayer is that you feel encouraged, seen, and reminded of just how deeply God loves you. May you find hope, healing, and joy in your own walk with Him. You are so valuable, and your story is far from over.
xoxo-
Kayla
“ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!”
Proverbs 31
A Wife of Noble Character
10 Who can find a virtuous and capable wife?
She is more precious than rubies.
11 Her husband can trust her,
and she will greatly enrich his life.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She finds wool and flax
and busily spins it.
14 She is like a merchant’s ship,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up before dawn to prepare breakfast for her household
and plan the day’s work for her servant girls.
16 She goes to inspect a field and buys it;
with her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She is energetic and strong,
a hard worker.
18 She makes sure her dealings are profitable;
her lamp burns late into the night.
19 Her hands are busy spinning thread,
her fingers twisting fiber.
20 She extends a helping hand to the poor
and opens her arms to the needy.
21 She has no fear of winter for her household,
for everyone has warm clothes.
22 She makes her own bedspreads.
She dresses in fine linen and purple gowns.
23 Her husband is well known at the city gates,
where he sits with the other civic leaders.
24 She makes belted linen garments
and sashes to sell to the merchants.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity,
and she laughs without fear of the future.
26 When she speaks, her words are wise,
and she gives instructions with kindness.
27 She carefully watches everything in her household
and suffers nothing from laziness.
28 Her children stand and bless her.
Her husband praises her:
29 “There are many virtuous and capable women in the world,
but you surpass them all!”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last;
but a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised.
31 Reward her for all she has done.
Let her deeds publicly declare her praise.
And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.
- Phillipians 1:6